God is doing something magnificent. He must be. This is the second most hectic time of my life!
It wasn't a kitchen sink moment, but this morning as I left Corner Bakery (after stopping for my sugar fix), I realized that the place He wants to take me will require that I totally relinquish control. I don't have the capacity, in my own strength, to do what He wants me to do.
The underlying theme of my life these days is: You are not in control. No matter how much I plan and organize….things fall apart and it makes me crazy. No matter how hard I try to stay ahead of the game….it all washes out to sea and that makes me crazy.
The harder I grab the slippery wet soap in the shower, the more times I drop it. The faster I run on the little wheel of life, the more out of breath I feel. When I look up, I'm panting relentlessly only to notice that I'm standing still: moving nowhere fast.
Rather than eat my body weight in Twix candy or another equally sugar laden treat, I'm going to try to focus every ounce of my being on 'letting go'. This will be an ongoing, lifelong process for me, because it certainly doesn't come naturally!